Another lovely start to the day. One of our advisors is AWOL. Got a call around 8:20am from the client he was supposed to see at 8:00am, and she was –pissed-. His cell is turned off and the mailbox is full, and we haven’t got any other number for him. So your guess is as good as mine. P & I figure he’s hungover. He doesn’t usually have appointments on Friday, but we cleared this with him at the beginning of the week, and emailed him the details as usual. So our reputation goes down one more step.
Today’s my last day. Today’s my last day. Repeating that is how I made it here in the first place this morning, and it shall be my mantra to get me through the day. I still feel bad for ditching when I know the company’s in crisis, but I can’t help under current circumstances anyway. Mostly I feel bad for ditching P, cause I know next week’s going to be a nightmare for her. Still no new receptionist.
Made it to yoga last night. Decidedly sore from it, but that’s a good sign. Means I’m actually working the muscles. It’s hard to believe how inflexible my body really is. I don’t notice it most of the time, but I do in class because though I’m one of the youngest people there, I’m also one of the stiffest. It’s OK though. The teachers at least understand that you have to start from where you are, not from where you’d like to be. I may be starting from farther back than many people, but I figure that as long as I stick with it and keep practicing, I will improve.
I think I should practice at home as much as I want. I’ve been restricting it to every couple of days to let my body recover, but I’m not convinced that’s the best approach. I think I should make it a daily habit, one that I miss if I don’t do. It’s not like I’m going to have any shortage of time over the next couple of weeks. I figure going to class once or twice a week is plenty if I’m practicing regularly at home. And honestly, all the props & silliness at the studio is not my cup of tea. I think the simplicity of having just a mat and your body is one of the most important parts of yoga.
One of the things I really love about yoga is that there’s no opportunity to think about anything else when I’m doing it. I’m completely focused in the present moment and what’s going on with my body in the pose. It’s a wonderful break from the constant stream of worries and problems that usually occupy my mind. It’s no wonder my body’s such a wreck! I’m really working on self-awareness right now, because honestly, I am a mystery to myself most of the time. Maybe it’s all the 12th house stuff floating around in my psyche.
